1 month no blog!! (soz) merry christmas

this is my christmas blog as i kinda forgot to write anything on here for like a month (absence and growing fonder and all that rubbish) but i doubt you have cared or wanted to read this anyways (got 81 views without doing anythings thats good right??) but i'm still not as interesting as before, i went to a good few gigs (girls, yuck, fight like apes, john cooper clarke) and all were brilliant but not a gud as billy (christmas cat)
but who cares about that crap its like christmas basically and everyone must super like christmas so i have got

pictures that will do nothing but hate me and christmas even more

 

oh um dunno how to say this but thats the onlyh one so yeah soz AGAIN i will get a pic of me passed out in the snow somewhere if it snows here to make you get in the festive spirit but for now i am getting to watch a pantomime (the same one) everyday til its done to earn money dont hate me too much

YESTERDAY IN LONDON ETC

maybe going to london yesterday was good but I definitely know that I am working too much lately, and actually doing things that are not sitting in my room gawping at the internet for hours on end (which ultimately is a bad thing) but I suppose since I have some time now and maybe not ever again I will tell and show what crazy stuff I have been doing (not much really)

BUT I GOT A NEW BAG a nice kanken bag as you can see and if you ever wanna get one they lie to you as this in real life is so much brighter than in the pictures on the website but yeah they are the nicest ever right?? 

so that was in the morning and i eventually met with ruby at liverpool street station where we both decided we needed food! and lots of it so we went crazy and got a meal at leon (not a lot of food but it was SO GOOD) and also Henry Holland was there chilling n eating so thats a claim to fame (i definitely think/ know it was him god) but here's our rubbish pile neat right?

after we went to covent gardens and was trying not to be kettled in by the cops who were in holborn or something which is round the corner I think but we were gonna go to a gig in the evening not be beat up by crazy ass students and cops, so yeah we made it to Camden about an hour early, people already hanging around we queued later on and made pals with this american music journo student who we named joe jonas but that's all irrelevant cause he was nice enough whatever 

after waiting ages inside the electric ballroom spectrals come on and they were pretty cool and good to see live, we waited for girls to come on and couldnt stop laughing at how chilled out this security guard was 

but yeah Girls come on soon after and he was still chilled standing there, this time with a pose!!

Girls were too good honestly I was in lust with Chris Owens he is so pretty, cheeky and had the best trousers on which we thought was a skirt but it was fine cause it was Chris!! the only thing that spoiled the night were a few drunk french people and we just blamed it on their rude stereotype so whatever

so we had to go on the train home which was full of drunk people coming back from the red hot chilli peppers (hahaha) and when they all left and all our snacks were eaten this guy come on who tripped out so bad he might've been asleep but he was monged out pretty bad honest, sorry no pics was so hard to concentrate laughing through tiredness and wondering if he could see us trying our hardest but here are some other pics that we took and I really don't know what happened

SORRY RUBY 

BUSY WEEK

ok so today has been the first time in like a week I have had access to my netbook cause I've been crazy busy which is a GOOD thing as it felt brilliant to be out n about on trains and a megaton of buses and walking.
here's a list of low detail pictures to show what poop i have been up to

I went to Leicester and to the circus cause he could see it from his window and we couldnt resist being pissed off by the clown and amazed at ethnic stereotyping to impress small children and idiots!!

like the day after I got back from my bro's I went to see ruby and I experienced her driving as she is taking lessons and has a car to practice and I was kinda scared as those country roads are THIN and cars are crazy round there i swear,

That night we went for a meal at 'the waffle house' and guess what?? you get all yr meals on waffles which was super fab and weird but tasted THE BEST i was gonna get a dessert waffle but we had food just in case beforehand which was silly as I would've had a million more waffles

the next day we planned to go to the car boot for some good junk but slept most of the morning, decided to watch films and tele all day which lasted for 12 hours with a couple of breaks for soup and other snacks and doesn't ruby look lovely (a lot better than the soup which was disgusting to look at but nice to eat)\

yesterday morning i was taken over by billy when i went for a shower all i wanted to do was get back into bed but billy would not move for ages. I had to come home for work which is turning into a black hole of drunk idiots (most smell) who ask me about if my ears hurt or when my hair is due to be chopped off god seriously at least i dont spend monday to sunday in a pub wasting my life away spending money on stupid drinks to suffice for a shit life 

penultimate teen day

dunno if you know or care it's my birthday tomorrow and I am taking the minute out to snack for pre-celebration of going to work tonight as it's my last day of me being able to call myself a moody teen here is me looking moody comfort eating with a lot of jaffa cakes so fuck you 20 years old this is my response to you (but not the cards/ presents/ seeing ruby and going to laura marling gig tomorrow cause they'll be GOOD)

here is a list of what I have done on my last day of being a teenager:
had egg on toast
watched 2 episodes of planet dinosaur
done some housework
drunk tea
listened to my dad's boring life
showed dad how to send an email
pissed my cat off

BEING ILL SUX

BEING ILL SUCKS monday night/ yesterday was horrible as I was so snotty and yucky with bloodshot eyes everyone at work was saying I was high but I wish I could've been instead of serving beer to old men who waste their lives in a pub on a monday so onto yesterday I couldnt open my eyes til about 1pm considering I was awake at 8 listening to the television on the sofa waiting for a delivery isn't appealing and I hated every minute and I had a mound of tissues from nearly two rolls of toilet paper ugh
But being a slob most days and working in the evening allows me a good routine of watching daytime tele and I want to travel to Australia to look nervous/ sweat/ be edgy/ have no drugs/ declare everything so I get on Nothing to Declare and watch myself on my new fav program cool

SCARED (funfair edition)

WE WENT TO THE FAIR look how happy I am obvs at the enjoyment but this is scared part 2 cause peterborough is full of edgy and weird people and what better place to find edgy and weird people is the local fair at dusk (too scared to stay til its completely dark)

 ruby enjoyed herself look

 but then it got dark and there were shifty people around and look how scared ruby got, we managed to get some good pics especially of super bob next to the super bob ride (look at pic above) but all in all we had fun and i think we're going to go on some rides tomorrow as we didnt today cause we had bags and didnt want the fair people to look after (take) our things

SCARED

I went to a carboot this morning and I realised how much I am scared of the general public, strange people all around me and all i could think about was "did that fucker take my keys!!!!!!!!?" then i thought about how people are dumb if they couldnt feel being pickpocketed surely you must get butterflies like when you have a hand near your bits c'mon it could be some good fun for a split second before you realise it isn't a friendly fondle but whatever my jeans are tight but i was still paranoid about the situation
I also thought about how I would deal with the situation if it happened I think it'd end up in a bitch fight with me screaming some crap while emotionally getting my stuff back or my dignity with false tears which ends up with the people selling their crap giving me heaps of free things I dont need and making me feel better.

Not too long ago I wrote my views on sexism and gender equality to help a friend in her research onto the subject so I might as well share it out properly 

do you believe that language concerning sexism has changed in the last thirty years? if so why? It is hard to say that language has changed fully concerning sexism, as major examples are shown in everyday life and job occupation which most end in ‘man’ not a term which prefers either gender. for example if there is a problem in the home, a repairman would be the first name on the mind of those who want it fixed, not another term such as home repairs or repair person, repairman. But in other instances this can be seen to change by the officials in the positions, police forces now call themselves police officers instead of policeman or policewoman because using police officers as a term lets both genders be preferable, but this doesn’t mean that people in the wider society use the term as on many occasions police officers have to remind over and over again that they shouldn’t be specified into gender categories as they feel everyone is equal in the workplace. 
As for other instances, everyday language mainly concerning women among those who see fit to use different terms to relate to women, either slang words or associated words they see to be fit to label women as hasn’t seen much change over the years as many men can still use offensive terms that they feel is non-problematic or non-offensive to use, for example “the other half” in terms of their wife or spouse, which just seems as they feel like they can be referred as this which may belittle their presence in the relationship as someone who is just their to keep them whole as a person. Also the use of the terms “love” or “darling” is another example in which sexism in language is yet to change out of the belittling terms which women get referred to everyday, accept as a figure of speech and not speak against to get their rightful position as a female who has a name and should be associated with a proper reference to their name. 
 
do you believe that language is sexist in the modern media? if so, why and if possible please include examples? Sexism in the media is hugely subtle but ever existent as companies have to try and sell their products to their target audience. such examples can be Diet Coke, adverts solely advertised for women, as women are seen to be more health conscience and feel that having a diet coke will make them feel better about themselves for drinking that type of soft drink instead of one that has more calorie content. These advertisements do not take in the audience of men who think of their weight or have a diet strict lifestyle who would rather drink diet cola to full fat types. Companies also recognise this problem and reinvent diet coke, or pepsi turning from diet to pepsi max, or coke zero and reinventing the advertising to what can be seen as a more male orientated life, defeating octopuses in the sea to get the girl, or a woman walking away in little clothing as people smash through the window to feel more extreme and machoistic. For the media there isn’t a middle line between gender and advertising but a need to use vague current affairs which are constructed by the media itself to bewilder different genders to buy different style products because it makes themselves relate to that gender that they have socially influenced to believing which is right. 

what do you think of when you hear/see the word “feminist” or “feminism”?would you personally say you are a feminist? When I see the word feminism or the word feminist, I initially think of change, change in a positive way, for the better of society and to those who are and were oppressed by the societies most powerful cultures. I think of women and men who have spoken out over generations and their actions have helped start mould a better society where equality is starting to be more prominent in day to day life. I also think of how and when feminism can be a term which is used to show this force which makes the norm of the future, where everything is considered in both female and male forms where others shouldnt have to speak out against oppression because patriarchal views are diminished and left with the darker eras in the past.
I do see myself as a feminist, and everyone who feels that women’s equality is right and how society should treat women fairly should consider themselves in the feminist way of thinking, even though some groups of feminism would disagree men should be a part in this revolution every voice can be accounted for to help womens further liberation.

do you believe that women should remain a “miss” even after marriage rather than being changed to a “mrs”? I believe that women should have the right to change their title as they see fit, married or unmarried. Mrs, a shortened term from Mistress which is another term for lady of the house, which can be loosely seen as a woman who is the head of the household or a woman assigned to live and work in the home in a domesticated way. But other titles such as miss or ms derive from mrs in ways so how others can take upon the meanings of such titles can be each to their own.  

MAKING A ZINE (HELP)

I AM MAKING A ZINE and might need your help

today I was doing lots of good things and scanning all the zine work in took AGES and was so fiddly the pic above is one of the pics is what i had to put up with for ages before getting them right.
so yeah I'm looking for people to help write in it if possible, a short paragraph about how you feel about living in a different body, life, identity. A write up of how you could see yourself in someone else's life or something similar it doesn't have to be specific and if you do I'll send you a copy of the short zine im doing for free for helping (when i get them all printed and stuff) the pic above is one of the pics that is gonna be used
if you want to contribute email it to harrycudmore@hotmail.co.uk (thanks) and include your name and age and whatever
THANKS

today has been about clothes and as you can see from the picture I am nothing of fashion I just like band tshirts and colourful trousers cause I regret not being a girl cause girls clothes are super and when they look weird they are wonderful and london fashion week shows that, Ruby is wearing henry holland in the pic so the pic is relevant to the next part cause look at the great clothes women can wear from new henry holland stuff and whatever (i need to shut up but this has gotta look good)

so to balance my rubbish wardrobe i am going to buy some nice stuff soon if I ever can afford it so I can show you all me looking nice